It Is Well: In the good times PRAISE "His" name. In the bad ti...

It Is Well: In the good times PRAISE "His" name. In the bad ti...: "Well this update has been long overdue. Last week we went for a catscan because I had found a few area's of concern. Again so much wanting a..."

In the good times PRAISE "His" name. In the bad times do the same!!!!

Well this update has been long overdue. Last week we went for a catscan because I had found a few area's of concern. Again so much wanting and expecting to hear it is ALL gone we don't know what happened? That is not what we heard. Many of my area's of concern had gotten smaller, but too many new ones and several of the older ones got bigger and they were area's of much concern.
We both feel Numb, I guess that is the best way to describe it! Disbelief. Dissapointed and not wanting to face what is next. Nov. 29th I will go to have a port placed for my chemo treatments that will begin Dec. 8th. Yet in the mist of All this heartache there is such a sense of Gratitude in my heart, not just because of Thanksgiving but because of ALL the amazing things God has done in my life. I have an awesome husband and Children, great daughter and son-in-law. The BEST grandchildren ever. I have traveled places I never thought I would travel to. I have gotten to be a part of a new church called "More Life Church" which began 6yrs. ago and is thriving and growing leaps and bound. We are expecting a new granchild next May 9th, (our daughter and son-inlaws 1st child) I am blessed beyond measure.  Yet I maybe I should say we have many questions to why is this cancer still here? Why are we still dealing with this whole mess? We don't have answers to this Question. So for me ultimatley, it takes me back to my faith. Knowing God is with me, He will bring us through this, and He will give us the strength and courage we need as we need it. Being Thankful in ALL things not for ALL things is my life of choice. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not see. So I walk by faith and not by what I see, because I choose to Trust in my creator knowing He has a greater plan. It is well in my soul, yes it is well. I or again should say We cry from time to time. Feel disapointed at times, yet I am reminded This battle is not mine but the Lords!!!!!!!  I am reminded of the words to a song "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for my God is with me, and if my God is with me whom then shall I fear, whom then shall I fear. Oh no you never let go through the high's and through the lows, Lord you never let go of me!!!!! So my Thanks to the King of Kings for All of His promises and All the things HE has so richly blessed my life with. For the amazing people He has placed in my life. Life is truly to be cherished day by day. I give thanks with a grateful heart not For all things, but IN all things. He is worthy.

God's Grace Is Sufficient !!!!!!!

This past Thursday,  Bill and I went for my CatScan and I was so expecting to hear "CANCER FREE"!!!!!! Those are not the words I heard. Although 4 of my areas had gotten smaller with out Chemo or medications of any kind, was awesome and amazing news and I am so Thankful for that.  The other news seemed to cloud my good news, one area had doubled in size since June,which explained my pain and discomfort with my left leg and 2 new area's found on my right leg in the soft tissue!!!! I was angry, "Disssapointed", wanted to be in DENIAL of the whole thing. At one point I actually said to my Oncologist I am going to pretend I am not hearing you. I often wonder what she thinks of me (LOL) !!  I once again thought this was all behind me and once again we were faced with decisions I didn't want to face or make. Hearing things I didn't want to hear and just emotionally exhausted from the whole mess!!!! We had dinner plans Friday and Saturday evening with friends and I so much wanted to cancel because I just didn't feel like being around anyone!! I was so weepy and discouraged. We did not cancel and I am so glad. I thought if I cry oh well, they are my friends and they will understand. I didn't cry, I laughed and we had a wonderful time. Cancer just like other types of Cancer can try to rob us of our joy our life our hope and our love, BUT we do not have to allow that to happen. I had so many "AMAZING" things happen just when I needed it the most. I cried with God listening to me, I DON"T Understand any of this but this one thing I do know "GOD'S GRACE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR US" We don't have to understand it, or deserve it, all we have to do is recieve it. So I can proudly say when I am "Weak" HE is Strong in me and I can Trust Him to bring "His" Perfect will out of all this mess!!!  Gods Grace is enough for all of us No matter what we are going through His love, His Peace, His Joy, His Comfort, His Presence is ALWAYS there for us IF we turn to Him and continue to Trust Him "No Matter What "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Saturday night after dinner I went into the Bathroom and as I looked up there was a wall painting that said " My Grace Is Sufficient For Thee" it was as if God was there letting me know it is OK, hang on I am with you keep going. He gives us what we need when we need it because of His Amazing GRACE!!!!!!!!